May Eighteenth Twenty-Thirteen

I can feel the depression closing in. I can also feel the self destructive attitude coming back. I want to be better than all of this but it is so hard when I feel so unimportant to the people that are so important to me. I feel like no one has time for me anymore, but they have time for every one else because they are sure to send me pictures. I am just tired of feeling like I am every one’s problem. Why can’t I just think and act normally? I wanted to pick up a razor blade last night after eight months of being clean. I really should be soo much stronger than this… What is wrong with me?